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I understand.

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 15:23:48 GMT

i understand where my parents were coming from.
they are right.
i was wrong.
im sorry.
they are smarter
they have more experience
they understand life in more accurate way then myself.

i need to be better than i am right now. but i cant
i need to seize my moment, but i cant.

God will make me better than i am right now, He can.
God will help me seize my moment, He can.

lets go.
bt7

Never Stop Learning

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 20:15:21 GMT

My Favorite Photo (I've Ever Taken)
Brickfish

Showstopper

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 04:30:01 GMT

Song i recorded. teehee
its kinda roughish.

Its called Showstopper by AJ Rafael.
He's an amazing artist on youtube.
check him out.

you make my dreams come true
and I love all the small things that you do,
like blink 182
you make my days go better and the way
that the sun is shining through girl its all because of you

and I know its tough right now but youll get it together
and just know that I am here through all kinds of weather
I wont ever leave your side day or night or whenever
but right now I gotta say

that youre a
show stopper you are so hot and I cant get you off my mind
show stopper youre a jaw dropper
when I see you in the lights
you make everything alright
and I know that Id be fine if I had you

you make me wanna dance
cuz im happy but just know that I cant dance
so im sorry in advance
and
you make the stars shine brighter and the way
that the moonlight hits ur eyes makes me wanna be your guy
and I know its tough right now now but youl get it together
and just know that I am here through all kinds of weather
I wont ever leave your side day or night or whenever
But at this moment I just wanna say, I just gotta

that youre a
show stopper you are so hot and I cant get you off my mind
show stopper youre a jaw dropper
when I see you in the lights
you make everything alright
and I know that Id be fine if I had you

Day 6

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 04:26:08 GMT

Ok...So we went to Club La Vela AGAIN and we began talking to people.
They were more open this time around.
We got through surveys and booklets, we prayed for a few people.
But one thing captured our experience there.
There was this group of people holding signs saying things like...
"God hates you"
"Youre going to Hell"
As they marched along the beach, people would get angry and steal the signs, smashing them and throwing them into the ocean.

^^the guy here was holding the last sign, because he was tall, no one could take his sign. He held a video camera and recorded the angry mob.
People began arguing with the extremist group.
Back and forth they went. "God hates you" "but GOD IS LOVE!"
screaming at each other at the top of their lungs.

I feel bad, for this girl. She was with the extremist group, we assumed that the tall guy was her father.

They preached a "turn or burn," "in your face" gospel.
They were not very effective, they did not share about solution to sin, they made no mention of Jesus.
That sort of message gives Christians a really bad reputation, of being narrow minded and unloving.

There was one sign that read "God hates you, repent"
That got me kind angry.
If God hated me, why on earth would i want to repent?
Its an inaccurate depiction of my God, i got mad.
The sign should read "God loves you, repent!"


There was fight that broke out, the Coast Guard, the nearby army booth members came, club la vela security, and the police had to break up the fight.

After everything settle i got a chance to talk to the girl that was in the extremist group.
They seemed to know their doctrine, but they missed the point.
YES GOD HATES SIN, HE CANNOT STAND IT.
However, He hates sin, but loves the sinner. Jesus came to seek and to save that which was lost, not to condemn them. Like a parent loves their child despite wrongdoings, so God loves us.
Jesus overcame sin, sinners can be reconciled. But causing a riot, and declaring a cult-ish message, and then calling it God's work? You've got to be kidding me.

After that, people were open to discussing God. Many Campus crusade groups had been at La Vela all week, and some noticed that the Campus Crusaders were different from the "people with the signs."
That was one good thing that came out of the crazy mess.
Glory to God!

On the last day, God gaves us three breathtaking sunsets in a single evening!
Here they are.



And so the sun sets on another spring break.

Hopefully with many more awesome experience to come.
Thanks for reading!

PCB Updates: Complete.

In Him,
Boaz Tang

Monday, January 26, 2009

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 05:33:02 GMT

"Goodbyes only hurt if you never get to say hello again..."

some days...

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 03:57:33 GMT

Some days you wake up and you wish you were still sleeping.
You wish you could pause in the serenity of your sleep,
Yet, you must wake up. But you would rather crawl in a hole and die. Where you question everything, everyone and existence.

Other days you really want to wake up.
Because reality is finally better than your dreams.
To wake up and live for the moments you wish you could relive over and over, fortified in eternity. Theres is peace in happiness, a confidence.

During those rough days, those awesome days are forgotten and during rough times the facts of God's grace, justice and love are forgotten and replaced them with a bitter emotion.
Where is faith being placed? in facts? or in emotions?
Happiness&sadness coexist in life so that you can truly appreciate the other situation and until you experience those two phenomenas, no one truly knows what its like to be human.

sun&rain
love&pain
Beauty is everywhere...not everyone sees it.

btangseven

Monday, October 06, 2008

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 04:40:18 GMT

I cannot complain.
It is well with my soul.

-btseven

Can't Sleep

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 05:44:05 GMT

today i was laying in bed reminiscing...
and you cannot reminisce and sleep at the same time, it just doesnt work very well.
XANGA

im not sure why im writing about this like 3 months after the event but whatevs...who's counting anyway?

so yeah...we went on a trip to the adirondacks.
one part of the trip stuck out, one particular instance.

so we hiked up this mountain...i believe it was 'bauld mountain" if im not mistaken.
anyways...we hiked up it...and it was fun and lots of rocks and trails and inverted slopes and yeah.
spencer and i got really close to the summit of the mountain and there a was a break...where there were no trees just rock. it was widest view of the surrounding area, even a wider view than the top id say.

well yeah...i was really in awe at that sight.
i had my ipod on and i was just standing there looking out off the mountain.
something inside me compelled me to go toward the edge.
so i did.
and i just popped a squat on the edge of the mountain, pretty much on the edge of a cliff.

so yeah i was sitting there on the edge of a mountain looking out...
i saw at the adirondacks in all their splendor i could see at least 8 more mountain tops, luscious valleys.
i could see a river. the temperature was perfect. the green was soo green. the blue sky was soo blue.
i could see for hundreds and hundreds of miles. it was probably the most land ive seen with my naked eyes at one location ever. i saw clear skies and storm clouds in the same skyline clearer than something really clear. haha
the sun was out so that the rays glazed my face, and the rain was coming down rolling off my hair as well simultaniously.
it was poetic, and it was marvelous.
i must have sat there for about an hour.
30 minutes in...i was like "wow im on the edge of a mountain cliff"
so yeah if i sneezed wrong one time...id slip and fall off a mountain.
if my phone vibrated and i jumped a little...id slip and fall off a MOUNTAIN.
i was sort of getting scared mentally....physically i kind of just sat there
like...who cares?<thats seriously what my physical self said.
there are people on their death beds that would give whats left of their life income to come and see this view and here i am taking it all in for free and im not dying.
i began to think "how can people not believe theres a God?"
"how can people attribute THIS to a mere accidental intentionless event""
"how can someone see this view and not believe that some divine entity made all of this?"
i began to think of all the people that have taught me something...
all the people that have ever invested in me
people that i love.
have loved
will love.
...in the moment God whispered "youre welcome" it was very subtle, simple and sincere.
i kind of just smiled as Chris Tomlin's "How Great is Our God" came on my ipod.

in the one instance, of majestic beauty, awe, just speechlessness, i had never thought about so many people at one time, i was so thankful, looking back i was so close to the edge, i really pushed the limit of the cliff, there are alot of suicidal people that would have liked to sat where i sat that day, while i was looking down off the mountain i said to myself "so this is what its like, to command your own demise."
i was not going to kill myself, but by some freak accident i could have fallen. who knows? regardless, is was the first time i was so close to "death".
but. on the edge of that cliff with the those emotions i confirmed two things: i knew there was a God, and i knew He loved me...

...i had never felt so alive.

BoazTang
(im going to try and sleep now)

*september-seventh-twothousandeight.
twofortythree-AM-easternstandardtime.

18 much?

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 01:03:51 GMT

september second two thousand and eight.

what a seventeenth year.
haha wow
life has changed drastically this past year.
for better id say. high school to college.
emotionally more mature than a year ago.
alot of good times, fun laughs, long nights, treasured unforgettable moments, dreams, ambitions, growth,
it was a beautiful year all in all.
eighteen. wow...how fast.
two more hours...until i reach the point that
id never thought id make it to.

seventeenth unforgettable beautiful year.
eighteen? bring it.

much love
-btseven

=)

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 17:13:50 GMT

7.27<3